Day pass and feelings fade,i'm wondering if you regret that decision you made..REMEMBER ME?you made me feel like i was everything but then you left me easily like im nothing...isnt it?? I bet so.. the more i hide my feeling the more they show...the more i deny my feeling the more its grow..everytime i look at your picture i see those memories of what we used to be...i see how far apart we've grown and how much i need you in life:( sometimes following your heart means breaking someone heart like you do breaking my heart...all those peeps tell me this.. STAY STRONG BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE THINGS WILL GET BETTER..IT MIGHT BE STORMY NOW BUT IT CANT RAIN FOREVER...huhh..that was such good advice to me:) but im keep wondering...you know what hurts the most??the fact that i cant say i lost you..because apparently i never had you...sometimes too much happiness can be frightening..because you know in reality things END!! I dont want or need anyone who just want to change me into something im not...then because of that you leave....i miss you,i miss us, i miss having you to talk to whenever i wanted.. but know i have to move on because its pointless..i wish telling you how i feel for you was that bad easy..its not the goodbye is hurt me... but the flashbacks that follow..forgive me for missing you..i dont understand how i can care this much and you might dont care at all..i tell people that i HATE you..but i could never hate you...i wish you would just swallow your damn pride for once and admit that you really do miss me:) sometimes i wonder why the one i want is always the one i cant ever have..i think i should record myself saying "YOU DONT CARE" and play it 24 hours and 7 days a week..maybe its time i just start pretending nothing happen between us..mean since it was easy to you i guess so..i hate i still hope to see a text message from you in my phne that i know its never coming..the inside of me i cried..but the outside of me i LIED:)
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