Being with A but heart belongs to B? OWH THAT'S NORMAL:]

It doesn't matter if you are having gilfriend or boyfriend now. That status is not a guarantee to say that our hearts belong to the one that we're with. I hve beEn with some guys after him.  I tried to say that my heart is alredy belongs to 'not him'. Well atleast, if it doesn't belong to any guy, I wish to make my heart belongs to myself. I wish to own it by myself, not to him. The guys come after him, I know they were or are able to attract me to make me have something to admire onto them. But it is just that, it never be more than that. I always have in mind that I know, those who come after him will never never be my faith and destiny because what I know,I'm actually until now belongs to him. 

We should give our love to our soul partner , means a husband or a wife. But since we never knew who will be the one, that's the thing ! bayangkan, kita bercinta bagai  nak rak dengan A, last2 jodoh dengan B. To be worst, we're still loving A walaupun dah dengan B. Sebab dah terpahat untuk A je. Owh damn susoh2. haha it will be damn hard to cure 

This is so bad actually because I'm afraid that I will keep waiting for him until I faint out one day to know that HE's going to marry someone haha. Idk but I know I am being with this guy and this guy here there but when it comes to him wth a girl, I will started towefbn#EF. haha speechless. People keep asking me, ' you say that you're waiting for HIM, but why are you being wth someone else?'' and I will say, because my heart doesnt belong to those who I am with now so it doesnt matter. Yang penting, I never lie the person that I am with. I did tell if I think that I dont wanna be with him in the future like he's not the one . But now what is hapening, I am actually hoping that this man that being with me now can be the one that replace HIM. I told you, I can feel it just like that. Before, I tried hard to have this feeling ,to feel that they can replace HIM but I failed. But now this guy, eventgh we're just being a while just started but I think he can . Rasanya la. 

So yea i know HE is thinking that I 'm having a great life having this guy and that guy. Haha LU SILAP BRO . hahah

And yang penting, jangan mainkan hati orng. Kalau kita rasa kita masih tak boleh lupakan orang lain , jangan bagi harapan pada orang baru. If you still wanna be with him just go on sebb semua orang ada hak untuk move on kan cuma jangan tabur itu ini like u're really2 serius to have him as your future : ).. 



So, GOOD LUCK ME AND READERS!;)

i hate this feeling

Day pass and feelings fade,i'm wondering if you regret that decision you made..REMEMBER ME?you made me feel like i was everything but then you left me easily like im nothing...isnt it?? I bet so.. the more i hide my feeling the more they show...the more i deny my feeling the more its grow..everytime i look at your picture i see those memories of what we used to be...i see how far apart we've grown and how much i need you in life:( sometimes following your heart means breaking someone heart like you do breaking my heart...all those peeps tell me this.. STAY STRONG BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE THINGS WILL GET BETTER..IT MIGHT BE STORMY NOW BUT IT CANT RAIN FOREVER...huhh..that was such good advice to me:) but im keep wondering...you know what hurts the most??the fact that i cant say i lost you..because apparently i never had you...sometimes too much happiness can be frightening..because you know in reality things END!! I dont want or need anyone who just want to change me into something im not...then because of that you leave....i miss you,i miss us, i miss having you to talk to whenever i wanted.. but know i have to move on because its pointless..i wish telling you how i feel for you was that bad easy..its not the goodbye is hurt me... but the flashbacks that follow..forgive me for missing you..i dont understand how i can care this much and you might dont care at all..i tell people that i HATE you..but i could never hate you...i wish you would just swallow your damn pride for once and admit that you really do miss me:) sometimes i wonder why the one i want is always the one i cant ever have..i think i should record myself saying "YOU DONT CARE" and play it 24 hours and 7 days a week..maybe its time i just start pretending nothing happen between us..mean since it was easy to you i guess so..i hate i still hope to see a text message from you in my phne that i know its never coming..the inside of me i cried..but the outside of me i LIED:)

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