Open your eyes, look within.

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life, it goes on.

Have you ever wonder for all those years of living, did you became the person you thought you would be when you were a kid, or ur just someone that you swore you'd never be ?

I often have these random thoughts late at night. Thinking about the future kill me at times. Being afraid about who I end up with, will I have the opportunity to live my dreams, or even, will I succeed in making my parents proud. The truth is, whenever I got the chance to think about it, I get terrified. Because I often have these thoughts that I may not be who I wanted to be, or even, I may not own the good things in life in the future.

But one thing that everyone kept telling me was life goes on no matter what, and god is fair. For everything you've done brings you to another road that you should be prepared to take all the risks that are planned for you. And all of those situations will lead towards something else. If it turns out to be good, that's what I call happiness. If it turns out the other way around, maybe that's god's way in telling us to be tougher, and strive harder and of course, remember 'him' through our good and bad times.

We can't predict the future. That's why.

Kadang kadang, pilihan yang baik tak semestinya bawa kita kepada something yang baik hasilnya. Kadang kadang, pilihan yang tak patut kita buat beri impact yang besar dalam hidup. Ada masa baik, ada masa buruk. Kalau buruk pun, untuk kita belajar. Dan kita tak ulang kesilapan yang sama.

Tapi, kita manusia kan ?

Kalau ulang tu sebenarnya, memang kita. Nak sedapkan hati, kata tengah usaha lagi mana tahu hasilnya berubah. Tapi ada masa, terselit perasaan rasa diri tu jahil sebab ada alternatif lain tapi masih berkeras nakkan yang sama.

Depends, pada hati masing masing. 

Hidup sendiri, sendiri pilih.

Secara jujur,

Aku sentiasa cuba nak perbaiki cacat cela diri ni dari segi perbuatan, tutur kata, kesungguhan dan sebagainya. Ada masa aku gagal, tapi itu tak bermakna aku berhenti mencuba. Aku tahu, hati ini kental. 

Kalau tak kental,

Dah lama aku terjun bilik tgkt 9 ni. Tapi aku tak pernah terfikir nak buat.

Mungkin sebab aku pun gayat sebenarnya. Okay.

Where there is desire, there is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame, someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns, doesn't mean you're gonna die

You've gotta get up and try